I am sad mad!!
So so soo pissed!
You know if you are on some sort of break you better keep checking on the status of your qualification..
I was reading up a little about my qualification and I realized I just have 2 months to submit result of a thesis that probably takes 3 to 6 months to approve!
How awesome is that!!
Now I was having a major panic attack..i didnt even dare to call my friends because they could start an bullet train of cuss words..
And I was already shitting bricks..
I dont know for how long I was staring at screen wishing maybe this is a nightmere or something..
Then I thought ok I cant just sit like that and I got up and I was walking by my kitchen…and I heard something..
Something in my kitchen..an unfamiliar sound..
Only thing that came to my mind was..its a pigeon!!!
Or any bird…i shouldn’t have left the window open..
Now I m scared of birds..i mean when they fly close to you…its heart-attack inducing!!!
I gathered whatever little I had..cant even call it courage and I switched on the light..
No bird…and still I could the sounds…
There was water dripping from the ceiling of my kitchen!!
On the fridge…on like 3 4 cooking appliances…on slab…
It was raining in 1/4th of my kitchen..
I didnt know if to actually do something…or lay on the floor and cry like toddlers do in malls..
Or go back to bed..
With heavy heart I started clearing the disaster stricken area.. called building maintanace..
Turns out something happened to heater. I couldn’t even hear properly I was so mad at my fate!!
Once I was done doing whatever I could I came back to another disaster area.. my bed..where my laptop screen was screaming…”YOU IDIOT”
I started reading again..looking for some hope..
My head was hurting so bad.. obviously I hadn’t eaten anything since hours..and I cant hold hunger..
Now kitchen was flooded and actually I just didnt want to even go there again.
So I resorted to food ordering app..its zoomato here..
And then I got lost in that..that made me even worse as I was dying to have something that would just pack 3 4 kgs on my already panda body!
And inside I was like…dude you will take a decade to burn that..
I just wanna die..
Then thesis came to my mind again..
After at least half an hour I ordered food and when it arrived I rushed to open the door and tripped!! Perfect!!
Thank God my bed was close so I chose to land on that..partially..
and then people ask why I talk about crying in every post!!! look at me!!!
Now I might just eat something and go to sleep..
Its too much!!
Toxic (my brain cells are sad mad too so I am just pasting it here)
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