Goodbyes are hard

I just recovered from a full blown panic attack..took too much stress on my little brain at once and poor thing couldn’t take it.

Again a few challenges were thrown my way. This time with a deadline. All at once. Such things are literally narrated to me like a court verdict. I get no time to think and plan. I have few month to reclaim my life.

On the other hand The daily post is leaving.

Today I saw the WPC and started looking for my first photo that I uploaded here on my blog…and it was this, my header image..

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My eyes welled up.

I have written so many times about how I started this blog.

To sum it up I was in a very dark helpless state in my life and I had nothing to hold onto when I started journaling. Within 4 5 months my friend suggested I start a blog. I was at my mom’s place and there was a little notepad and a charcoal pencil..i sketched it..just like that. And took its picture.

Perfect depiction of stoner on a roller coaster.

And this journey began.

This symbol is so close to my heart. This is my All-Time Favorite image as this marks beginning of my blogging journey.

The blog grew the moment I started participating in word prompts and photography challenge.

So in total 13 months I earned 1912 followers.. this was power of this platform. I have no idea what I am going to do without it.

Some part of me is Broken beyond any chance of repair.

I am not very social in my real life but here I have amazing friends who have always stood up when I needed friends ..even family.

In these 1 and half year I lost my mom and my grandfather..i was really close to both..i have no idea what it would be like if I didn’t have my blog when my mom was counting day in another country and here I was stuck with my appointments swinging between anxiety and depression.

My friends here were with me all the time.

Mental illness hit my family in the most unexpected way and I saw my family falling apart. I could hear the haunting blast when the walls of my home came crumbling down.

I had suicide ideation twice and I had my blog friends holding me together when I was on the brink ultimate collapse.

I discovered myself. My own potential and got appreciated tremendously.

All this time I could feel invisible arms wrapped around me of people I don’t even know..and they certainly don’t know me..

A place that connected you to kindest souls on the planet is not going to be there. It’s like I am losing someone..

It’s such a huge loss.

It’s going to be very hard to say goodbye to this place.

P.s. I am not going anywhere!

Kindly visit my post Warriors Invited To Raise Mental Health Awareness where I am inviting Mental Health Warriors to submit their blog’s address so that we can join hands to control this wildfire.

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  1. You make it sound as if you had to quit blogging altogether. I am disappointed to see The Daily Prompt go too, but some people will hold similar challenges, even if it won’t be the exact same experience… 🙂

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      1. Thanks for letting me know.
        I am adding the links in a draft to follow once i have a little more time. I think i have already added yours there are 4 5 more.
        Right now just too cought up with things.
        Will probably join prompts august onwards.
        Thanks a lot for the effort and informing me 😊

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  2. I too, am rather enamoured with the image of that little person atop the roller coaster. If, for whatever reason, you feel the need for change then, by all means, change. There are no rules. You don’t have to blog daily (I am constantly changing time zones …. so the concept of ‘daily’ doesn’t even make sense) – all you need do is pop by now and again and share your thoughts even if (especially if?) those thoughts are about another ride on the Big Dipper.

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  3. Hello Sweet friend. I’ve been gone from blogging, for life lassoed my mind and I couldn’t get myself here. But, I’m back. For how long? Not sure. But I agree with Richmond, “daily” is just a gage to help. Don’t allow it to become a ruler, but a key to unlock what you want to share when ever you the need presses. Blessings. By the way, your drawing belongs on a book cover. Have a beautiful day my friend. God bless you.

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      1. You could start now, by going back to your blogs, group them to form chapters and then see how they will produce more material for a book. Just a thought. Nice to connect with you again. 🙂

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  4. I drew at a website for years, thousands of members , but the owners stopped funding it, it was terrible, it closed. I had to try and copy all my drawings before it ended. You go into mourning. It is a real loss. It is something to feel sad about, but it can lead to new things…I found instagram… I’m always posting there. some of my old friends are there too. Have you thought this could be a new door opening for you? Best wishes xx

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      1. 😢thats why richard flies his helicopter, it takes his mind off his anxiety and he is in control of something. I find kite flying helps me… I know its a mad idea. He also colours in adult colouring books, while he us doing that his anxiety reduces, he doesn’t have to plan what to draw, just follow the lines and the concentration helps…..I’m not suggesting you do any if these… but have you got anything similar you could do?

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      2. so flying helps both of you. adult coloring books are not for me they spike up my anxiety.
        but I read this comment before and there is a very random piece ..so random it looks like a child is doing it. its abstract in sort pastel. not looking good now but when I cant think its keeping me busy. but then even the started annoying me. I ma overdrive right now.
        trying to contain myself. will be fine in a few days.
        thank you so much you are too kind. God bless you both. Ameen 🙂

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  5. I think/hope others will pick up where the prompt left off. I was upset when I saw that too. I hoped they might offer someone to host it for them that has the time to devote to the prompts. Maybe you could start your own daily prompt and label it so new people can find it easily? Just a thought. I hate to use the phrase when one blog closes another opens? I know it’s doors, but hey I had to change it a little.

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    1. ahah nice change to the phrase. I like it.
      I am reaching 2000 followers I was thinking maybe I should do something but honestly I don’t think I cant deal with it I have already too much on my plate right now.
      on daily post I just had to go, write and enjoy the ride.
      hosting is responsibility. with mental health project on the side it’s going to be too much.
      I have seen some people starting their prompts. its good.
      maybe someday I will too. I don’t know..ughh im so lost.

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  6. Wow I know how you feel… I have been feeling so low since I read about the daily post… gosh I used to be so motivated to write something or get out and find something interesting to share with everyone… like you I have also grown attached to the prompts and challenges and it’s hard to imagine that we won’t be doing this anymore 😢 and it’s because of it I also found a talented person like you in my little list of unknown friends. I should stop tying now cos I think I can go on and on…

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      1. Thank you so much (it’s alyana right? Sorry I just realised that I haven’t addressed you correctly esp since we have known each other for a long time now thanks to DP☹️ Its so weird and wrong on my part. Sorry once again).

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      2. hahaha even thats not my real name. I had to come with a name that would look like a name.. (anything besides stoner) so I chose this.
        its ok. people mostly still call me stoner and I am totally cool with that.
        my dad started calling me stoner so im pretty used to it. 😆

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  7. I’m sorry you are hurting. Sounds like this was a punch in the stomach for you. I was afraid you were leaving your blog until I read the comments. I must have missed that they were stopping the Daily’s. I never participated in those, but I had meant to. I just figured I ramble enough on here. I’m surprised I have as many followers as I do. It is going to take some time for this to sink in, but you will feel better soon. Take your time. I’ll be waiting. 🙂

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