I am writing straight in the wp editor. this is so not me.
but I really don’t have time its crazy here.
there are so many stages to trauma and disaster its hard to know. you are just thrown in a storm and you have nothing to help yourself.
last few days have been so crazy and damaging.
repetition I useless. I keep writing here.
the thing is. I talked to my brother. I got a msg from him “what has happened nobody is talking at home” I told him. and he showed faith in me. he is very young just 19. but he takes care of home and he said its your home too. and he showed trust that I will be out and I will do something. I got so emotional suddenly.
he didn’t have a solution but he believes in me. that means the world to me right now.
he even talked to the people who were being rude. dad did too that the behavior toward me was wrong.
we all know nothing is going to be easy. honestly now I don’t even know whats going to happen.
but I know one thing.. I have to fight!
I really don’t have choice.
sadly most supportive people have been my real life friends and you guys. and an amazing friend I keep mentioning who jumped to real life from here. she is just amazing. talking to her makes me stronger.
she keeps telling me to focus on myself.
it took me 3 days to actually figure what’s happening. there were so many lies and deceit i didn’t know what’s going on.
now at least I have 2 3 plans of survival.
when you are in a disaster you do get hurt you can’t avoid it.
its like walking on that bed of flaming coals. if you keep walking you will get to the end. this is new to you. you don’t know at what pace you should walk or how hot they can be. you can’t calculate the damage. but if you stop it will burn you bad.
so the only option is to keep walking.
so. I can’t explain how bad thing are. its horrible.
but I know it will be over. it has to be. and I didn’t hurt anyone. I am not wrong so it has to go in my favour in the end. its just this process that is painful.
I have sent permissions for reblogs to few more mental health fighter. I will resume that.
I will resume anything I can.
I might not be very consistent as it can overwhelm me.
the point is to keep fighting and moving.
thank everyone. you guys are just amazing.
from me to you all..
not a GoT fan but THIS is something..
Kindly visit my post Warriors Invited To Raise Mental Health Awareness where I am inviting Mental Health Warriors to submit their blog’s address so that we can join hands to control this wildfire.
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