2018

By the end of 2017 I thought it was toughest year of my life but maybe I was wrong. Here is post of last year end, Perfect closure

But 2018 was an extremely challenging and unpredictable ride.  

Let’s split it into categories or I will turn this boring.

Blogging

I thought I haven’t been actively blogging this year ..but stats says otherwise..

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Maybe not in the number of followers but overall it has grown I guess.

We lost the daily post. That’s an irrevocable loss. Glad some fellow bloggers are trying to keep the community intact by introducing their own prompts every day.

At one point I was thinking about monetizing blog but after working I gave up. I will think about it again this year, who doesn’t like some extra money?

Needlessly to say this place has always been home. Always comforting. Only place where I can pour my heart our filters removed.

Arts

Practiced more than ever and studied art forms and history (mostly on internet especially youtube). I fell in love with expressionism, and got obsessed with work of Marianne Von Werefkin. You have to check her work.

I felt my art is taking a distinct form of it’s own and it’s a beautiful feeling.

This year I did my best art work so far, Serene

Reading

Didn’t finish a single book! Worst year for book reading. I am still stuck on “the trial”. Still have it by my side.

Poetry.

My poetry book is near completion. Actually publication I am almost done with it just into pre publishing phase.

Participated in OctPoWriMo 2018

Listen to more poetry than music this year I guess. Ellen Edgar Poe, Sylvia Plath, Charles Bukowski were the poetry obsessions of the year.

I don’t know how many times I listened to “The hollow men”.

I wrote my best poem so far, A Poem I Can’t Name

Health

I joined gym, then left for health reasons.

Had a surgery where I though I was in my senses but surgeon thinks otherwise. Most of the time I was acting as a commentator.

I came to terms with my illness. After years of trying to find answers finally doctors told me I probably have to live with this and flares. I accepted the flaw it caused and started working on ways to let it not bother my rest of the life.

Had a month long darkest phase of depression of my life! maybe 2 months. i don’t even remember exactly.

And had my worst chain of panic attacks. God bless my friends for helping me through.

Mental Health Awareness

I started taking baby steps to spread awareness about mental illnesses and tried on my own level to provide some sort of validation to the people living with it.

Personal

I came very close to solving my major life problem and then everything took a you turn.

I lost my entire family so suddenly I couldn’t believe it.

Then got them back but with a brutal reality check, nobody can practically help you.

My friends stood by me all the time emotionally. They didn’t let me collapse. As always.

Someone made me feel so beautiful it became impossible not to like myself. It was a much needed fresh breath of air. You know what you mean to me, just never ever leave me.

Overall life..

If I say it was a tough year I know next one won’t be easy either.

This year made me and broke me in a hundred ways.

But it couldn’t break my dreams because I had the best friends anyone could ever have. I mean it. Any one of them was always around one way or other so whatever happened I wasn’t completely alone.

I don’t believe in new years resolution. Actually I don’t believe in new year’s eve as such. I greeted everyone as it’s a common event for all of us.

I believe in working on your goals one day at a time. And when you follow this approach you make greater progress.

I thought it was an unfortunate year for me personally, but when I started writing I realized it wasn’t that bad. There were light balancing out the darkness.

This is life guys..and that’s how it goes..

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Kindly visit my post Warriors Invited To Raise Mental Health Awareness where I am inviting Mental Health Warriors to submit their blog’s address so that we can join hands to control this wildfire.

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  1. You just reminded me to look at my stats and see how did I do. You’ve made so much and went a long way into dealing with life. It is admirable of what you have done. I am proud in your stead. You haven’t given up to problems, and that speaks a lot about who you are under all that problems and difficulties. Be proud of yourself, try making the best out of this year and strive for a better life. I am sure you’ll make it. Because you’ve got the mindset for it.

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  2. I am glad you have had such a successful blogging year, and you are right, there is light balancing the darkness.
    2018 was not a good year for us, so we look forward to the new with anticipation.
    Family, except Bro in NZ, are estranged. It is their problem, not mine as I have grown tired of olive branches and good intentions. We have friends and are making new acquaintances all the time, so who knows what potential lies waiting.
    My blogging year has been the best, as is my blogging family. Their support has been second to none.

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    1. That sounds so much like my own life. There were major problems in real life including some serious failures but success of blog do comfort you to some level.
      And I agree one day you stop chasing people and then they start calling you mean. Lol.
      Blog community is undoubtedly amazing. The best kind of people on the planet. 🙂

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  3. You’re absolutely right, there’s always a balance between joy and sadness, good and bad, dark and light. I think a lot of our perception of the past is clouded by present mood.
    Keep working on those goals, one day at a time and you will get there.
    Karen x

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  4. For this year I hope you find more reasons to like yourself and more than that I hope you find ways to like yourself without needing reasons.
    For what it’s worth, your writing has always made me think of you as a beautiful person, there always was light in your darkness.

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      1. 3 or 4 years at least. I also followed you on Instagram for a while till you got lost in the algorithms. I normally only come to rant and vent here but would occasionally read your poetry. Stoners are always men. 😝

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      2. O MY GOD! This blog is only to years old. Dude what’s going on.
        I know you were following there. I might resume that too but I dont know.
        Ahah thanks for reading my poetry.
        Cmon I know girl stoner.. and I am not a proper stoner. Not even a real stoner.
        I need a solid rant!

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      3. 2 stoner blogs 😢
        I have mixed real life people.. I mixed 2 news anchors and said “why does he look like a toasted almond” and my dad who was actually very sleepy said “it’s not him” .
        I thought our prime minister was our president…you cant beat that!!

        Well now I see why you think only men are stoners..

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