Please, Save Yourself.

Few hours back I was getting ready to leave for a wedding and as I’m too addicted to WordPress (or it just had to happen this way) I checked my WordPress reader and saw a fellow blogger asking for help.

I reblogged it in panic. And I literally have no words to thank friends from WordPress community who jumped on board to help me with this I have no idea what would I have done.

I don’t know this girl, she joined us on my mental health awareness post.

Thank God she’s safe now.

I went to the wedding and came back but something inside me is still shaking.

I want to say something.

Nothing, and nobody is worth your life. I don’t think I can give words to what I’m trying to say but Charles Bukowski has said it the best:-

“nobody can save you but
yourself.
you will be put again and again
into nearly impossible
situations.
they will attempt again and again
through subterfuge, guise and
force
to make you submit, quit and/or die quietly
inside.

nobody can save you but
yourself
and it will be easy enough to fail
so very easily
but don’t, don’t, don’t.
just watch them.
listen to them.
do you want to be like that?
a faceless, mindless, heartless
being?
do you want to experience
death before death?

nobody can save you but
yourself
and you’re worth saving.
it’s a war not easily won
but if anything is worth winning then
this is it.

think about it.
think about saving your self.”

― Charles Bukowsk

I know how this works. Having experienced anxiety, depression, suicide ideations, I know it’s easier said than done.

But is there anyone who can take care of you better? I don’t think so.

If someone don’t want you to be happy then show them you don’t need them for that.

Show them you don’t have time to entertain stupid conspiracies.

Show them you are strong and they can’t break you.

Show them you don’t care about what they tell you, because you know what you are and you believe in yourself.

There comes a time when we need to give a shut up call and there are times when we can kill with silent treatment or just do our thing and let karma do its thing.

At any cost don’t harm yourself especially when this is what they want. We have to win here. They are the losers already.

Another friend of ours have written about a few free apps to help you in a mental health crisis like this https://wanderingformoney.com/apps-to-help-when-money-or-anything-is-hard/

I keep planning to start a group but this will get too overwhelming for me to adjust in my routine.

If you know any support groups that genuinely help people (and have to be understanding of the situation) please suggest in the comments.

I personally do diaphragmatic breathing for anxiety you can learn it on youtube or ask your therapist to help you with it.

Please take care of yourselves guys. You all are too precious and for someone on earth we mean the entire world.

I will close with a Rumi quote.

“Don’t you know yet? It is your light that lights the worlds.” – Rumi

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