I have been fighting urge to write this for hours.
I hate it when people know your strongest triggers and use them against you.
Had such a bad day. My anxiety is through the ozone. It has faded to some extent but it’s still here.
Thanks for my best friend for staying on phone with me for around 2 hours. She was tired and yawning but she knew I need her so she stayed with me. At one point she said if call suddenly goes mute I might have run to the bathroom.
Physically anxiety effects me the most on shoulders. It take the longest to go from my shoulders. It’s a horrible feeling.
Even though I’m tons better than how it was when I got triggered, but it’s still crawling and circling in my shoulders.
I just hate this whole thing.
I fought it really hard. I did give it a good fight.
Tried self care. Coconut oil is awesome for your teeth.
Listened to music.
Tried keeping myself busy with book.
In the background I had a funny movie running.
And a forensic files episode running on my phone.
I was trying everything.
I didnt feel like chewing food so i have been on soup and coconut water and water.
I just hate it when people use your weakness against you and when you react they blame you for being weak or flawed. These people are worst kind of people on the planet.
This is mental abuse and I have no regret in praying they get the same and realise what they do to others.
I feel so agitated.
I have been somewhat happy about how my life has been shaping lately. I could see my efforts being rewarded after a long struggle.
And then some asshole has to toss your hard earned peace in air like it’s some toy.
This scares you.
This would scare anyone. Even if they have never had any mental health issues.
Someone scares you and you do get frightened! It’s normal!
This doesn’t even count as something unusual.
Then why people have to be such morons.
I’m so done.
I have tried everything but my shoulders.. this sucks.
Kindly visit my post Warriors Invited To Raise Mental Health Awareness where I am inviting Mental Health Warriors to submit their blog’s address so that we can join hands to control this wildfire.
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