We are so ungrateful. I’m talking about entire human race in general.
When I stated blog it just wanted a mental escape. I never thought of a book.
Then suddenly I started writing a psychological thriller and it got intense to a point that I had to stop writing. It became too much for me to continue.
Then 2 more books that didn’t go anywhere.
All this time I thought I can’t do poetry. Yea believe me I told Sam (bff) I can’t write a poem.
Then a lot more shit happened and I don’t know how and why I started doing poetry.
Until then I didn’t even know I will publish.
Then I started looking into self publishing.
And the rest you guys know.
But my intention was different.
I have an extremely complicated life. There were times I have written 4 5 pages of a post to explain and then gave up in the end.
I remember myself saying. I just want 1 book on the shelf. A product that I can sell when I have nothing.
And then with love prayers support encouragement, my book became no.1 new release for first few days and that was insane.
I never imagined that would ever happen.
But then as rank dropped that’s where my humanness kicked in and I started freaking out.
Then I saw goodreads mail. It said I got approved as an author.
And that was what I needed.
It calmed me.
I wish I could twist my leg and kick myself.
I mean, did I even ask for what I got? Even though I worked really really hard on it. I gave my all to this book. But everyone does. And not everyone gets what got.
Then how could I complain.
So yesterday rather than worrying about numbers I decided I will enjoy this journey.
Yesterday I didn’t even press the refresh button to check the ranking and all. today I did and it wasn’t too bad still.
Now on I won’t stress myself.
I will keep working to make it successful. I will try my best to not let it sink.
I am working on 1 concise post to promote swinging sanity so that I don’t have to reblog 3 4 different posts that you might find annoying at times.
Will links to my social media presence.
And I am going to appreciate and enjoy the whole thing, every little step of this journey.
Ramble over! 🙂
P.s. here’s the link to the book => Swinging Sanity