And I’m sinking again.
The huge rusty iron anchor is taking my down to the bottom of dark ocean.
It’s been long since i tripped and started sinking.
I wrestle with water to stay on the surface. But who can fight that pull?
I tried to unchain myself, but failed again. Instead it broke my nails and made fingers bleed.
My lungs faught hard. To breathe. To survive. But now it’s filled with ocean water.
I’m a part of dark ocean, it’s a part of me.
It’s getting darker and denser with every passing layer.
I can’t see any creature. Any trace of life. Looks like I’m in space only its wet and it’s making me sick.
I feel sick
I have stopped trying to see, trying to live. I have stopped fighting.
I’m tired.
I hope James Cameron’s Titanic-hunting submersible can swing by and take you back up to the surface. xo
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Right now if a shark swims by I might ask her for help.
xx
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Do you ever have any good days?
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At least my last 10 posts prove that I do.
Maybe you are reading on only bad days.
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The feelings of despair are so well expressed
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Thank you. I wanted to explain it but then I just let it be.
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You’re welcome.
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Beautiful words. I wish that you can break free of the anchor and find your way back to the light.
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I wish it was easy. I wish it was possible!
Thanks.
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It is possible, but not necessarily easy.
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True.. 🙂 will take some time.
Thank you.
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While the tide may carry you out I have also witnessed it carrying you in again, too! Hang in there, dear friend… Prayers for you!
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I know. I am waiting for the next tide and it will only come on it’s own time.
Thanks for prayers.
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Always!
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Just keep swimming, my friend, you’ll find your way back up to the surface, and I’ll be there to grab on and drag you on shore! ❤
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I dont understand how I just miss some comments and see them after a year..
Thanks for the lovely comment 🥰
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I think it’s WordPress. My comments are all screwy.
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It’s not just your comments. I think I haven’t gotten notification for a lot of them. And then there are people wordpress unfollowed from my list on it’s own. You are constantly fixing some thing or other
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Unfortunately, yes. Remember to check your spam folder on WP. People wind up there, too. 🤷🏻♀️
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That I do regularly. It’s an attached bath of my comment section, have to visit it!
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An old angler fish with a light hanging down has been swimming next to you. Follow the light upwards, see the rippling shafts of light coming down to meet you. Do not worry about the water, it is warm and safe, the water is full of bubbles of air you can sneak breath from. It is bouying you up higher. Now you break the surface and see a blue sky. The hands of a fisherman grasp you and pull you out. Safe and warm and carried to a warm white beach. Stay safe dear friend. X
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I feel like crying 😭
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Don’t let your tears top up the ocean. Let them water flowers instead xx
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I hope you are OK.
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I’m a little better. But it’s a struggle. It will take a few days actually around this time last year my life was a hellhole. So I’m hell aniversary. It will pass in a few days.
Thanks for caring xoxo
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I do. I wish I could make things better. Take care dear.
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You do make things better everytime. This is all I need. I’m doing my best.
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Hugs
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Thank you. 🤗
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Just hope for the best
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Doing that. Thank you 🙂
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Great you can
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