Another review..and I’m crying 😭

Why are you guys so amazing??

I mean do you plan it? Like we won’t let her give up. We will collectively save her??

What is it? Where is that secret support group where you all plan to save me every freaking time!

I have been battling with depression for last few days. I am faking normalcy as hard as I can.

Around this time last year my whole world came crashing down literally, I still wonder how i survived.

So I’m having trauma aniversary plus some brand new traumatic experiences.

As my friend put it “trauma over trauma is consuming you” she couldnt be more right.

I kept smiling, laughing, goofing around just pretending to be happy

And then it strikes you in the head.

Then you can’t fake anymore but it’s too late you are too deep to save yourself suddenly.

I cried. Didn’t help.

Did everything I could think of. Nothing worked.

I felt if I would hear my dad’s voice I will have a heart attack and die.

I was ready to combust by looking at a spark. I have been dangerously volatile but on the surface I was covering up everything.

Yesterday I lost it.

And then there was that black hole gnawing on your sanity.

Same cold numbness.

But then I saw this!!

A review by another lovely blog friend Paula Light And I was crying. Happy excited grateful crying.

My real life friends have been working so hard on me. Just so that I survive this phase. They know it’s inevitable. They are just trying thier best to be there but sometimes you need more maybe.

So this was it.

This was all I needed to see and hear and read.

Thank you so much Paula for such a wonderful review.

And thanks everyone for being incredibly supportive of my work and me. I don’t know what I would do without you all.

I really really love you guys.

Thank you!!

Kindly visit my post Warriors Invited To Raise Mental Health Awareness where I am inviting Mental Health Warriors to submit their blog’s address so that we can join hands to control this wildfire.

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Here’s the link to my debut poetry collection => Swinging Sanity

Here’s the link to my post about the book – All About Swinging Sanity

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  1. I haven’t been battling the same as you (although it could be depression I am in search of what the heck is wrong with me aha ;o) but have been having quite a difficult time the past few months and can’t seem to shake it. Just having really bad anxiety all the time, lack motivation or can’t seem to get myself motivated when I need to be, in some constant fog and nothing seems to work or be okay. LIke you I have been doing my best to fake normalicy because really as a person on the autism spectrum that is the story of my life (I loved how you quoted ‘faking normalcy’ btw!!!) but lately it just has been really brutal and difficult to fake being okay or do much of anything without struggling and failing. So I guess I can say I know somewhat how hard it can be.

    I am so glad this review and comment lifted your spirits and I hope you get back to being alright soon! I know it’s hard, but sometimes all we can do is survive the storm any way we can and little things like these comments can really help make the dark a bit brighter. 🙂 Wishing you all the best and for what it counts I really enjoy your posts too and they help as I can relate to things like mental health issues and your creative writing and wording is beautiful and really helps. 🙂

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  2. This is just old school spitballing, looking for a current upgrade, but what if we on wordpress were to have our own forum for when people are having problems and with all the time zones and everything, someone would always be available for a text or email when help is needed? I know it’s not that simplistic but I was around during the 90’s chat room days and it was an amazing experience, knowing I had a tether to the earth with the people there.
    I’d like some feedback from you on the topic, since you have been such a great advocate. You are fortunate enough to have close people you can call or turn to (and no one is lucky to be depression, don’t take it that way) but for those of us without an understanding support network…I think it’s something that could help a lot of people.
    Feel free to chime in anyone.

    Congrats on the reviews and validation, Stoner. You worked hard for it, you deserve it. ❤

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