Why are you guys so amazing??
I mean do you plan it? Like we won’t let her give up. We will collectively save her??
What is it? Where is that secret support group where you all plan to save me every freaking time!
I have been battling with depression for last few days. I am faking normalcy as hard as I can.
Around this time last year my whole world came crashing down literally, I still wonder how i survived.
So I’m having trauma aniversary plus some brand new traumatic experiences.
As my friend put it “trauma over trauma is consuming you” she couldnt be more right.
I kept smiling, laughing, goofing around just pretending to be happy
And then it strikes you in the head.
Then you can’t fake anymore but it’s too late you are too deep to save yourself suddenly.
I cried. Didn’t help.
Did everything I could think of. Nothing worked.
I felt if I would hear my dad’s voice I will have a heart attack and die.
I was ready to combust by looking at a spark. I have been dangerously volatile but on the surface I was covering up everything.
Yesterday I lost it.
And then there was that black hole gnawing on your sanity.
Same cold numbness.
But then I saw this!!
A review by another lovely blog friend Paula Light And I was crying. Happy excited grateful crying.
My real life friends have been working so hard on me. Just so that I survive this phase. They know it’s inevitable. They are just trying thier best to be there but sometimes you need more maybe.
So this was it.
This was all I needed to see and hear and read.
Thank you so much Paula for such a wonderful review.
And thanks everyone for being incredibly supportive of my work and me. I don’t know what I would do without you all.
I really really love you guys.
Kindly visit my post Warriors Invited To Raise Mental Health Awareness where I am inviting Mental Health Warriors to submit their blog’s address so that we can join hands to control this wildfire.
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Here’s the link to my debut poetry collection => Swinging Sanity
Here’s the link to my post about the book – All About Swinging Sanity