You know you are bless when you have someone that possesses power to calm you down.
I used the word power because that’s what it takes.
Last 4 5 days have been a race against time and I still felt I am not doing enough. I have no count of job applications I have sent in this short time span.
I called it mass shooting of CV.
Today I got my second rejection letter/mail.
I wasnt depressed sad or anything.
I felt nothing at all.
But that’s what I thought
Sometimes our friends know us better. And they told me you are having anxiety subconsciously.
Even though I am feeling okay overall. I’m doing okay! But what’s keeping me up then?
Before it would move to conscience from sub-conscience Sam picked me call at 1 30 am.
That’s what real friends are like.
She is insanely busy but she knew I was approaching something I don’t know.
She calmed me.
She told me what to do and how to take a break without feeling guilty.
Tonight is one of last big nights of Ramadan.
Even though I should have been praying but I dont know why I was imprisoned by this wierd nothingness.
Maybe its it’s just me.
It’s like when you are scared to take a step even though it wont hurt you.
I dont know how to explain.
But Yea. I am giving my laptop a much needed vacation.
Will go and pray right now and then just try to sleep again. And I pray for all of you too when I pray for my friends.
Any special prayers you want me to make for you?
Tonight I have decided I wont worry about not falling asleep.
That’s all for now.
Take care guys.