This post is not just about joker.
It’s a tapestry of different subject and experiences revolving around the subject of mental health, in a very pulp fiction way. And it’s important!
I was suggested not to watch joker as it’s dark and depressing and might trigger me…well… sounds like my kinda movie already.
My thoughts yesterday in the theater, waiting for movie to start..
I can already hear an eeriness…a very dark tragically beautiful eeriness.
And this dark yet soulful music..
In love with this movie already..I don’t even know why.
I have never felt this emotional attachment with a movie before even watching it.
And why is it taking so long..
My thoughts after the movie
nothing..nothing at all..
I am not numb, I’m not triggered I’m not anxious or depressed.
I feel validated.
I feel someone spoke what I have been shouting about, on a huge screen, in a very soft and yet firm voice.
Btw Joaquin Phoenix killed it!! If he doesn’t get an Oscar we will chip in and send him one!
Back to the movie.
I’m not going to give spoilers at all and I’m not sure if I should be recommending it or not.
I asked myself, do I want to show this to dad? There is a lot in it that he can directly relate to. There are some of his exact lines about his thoughts, medication and therapy. In a way, maybe he will feel validated and comforted that he is not alone.
But on the other hand what if it actually triggers him??
So there is a huge question mark levitating over my own head.
Is this movie going to make us feel better or worse?
Let’s try to figure out trying not to give away the story.
What do we feel when we see someone else is the same pain as us?
What do we feel when we see someone suffer in silence ?
What do we feel when we see someone finally breaking and reacting?
I just told a friend reaction makes us human. It’s normal to react.
You are going to feel all those emotions and nod.
I didn’t cry during this movie. I just felt comforted, I’m not wrong in my own emotions!
There is a scene that could directly relate to me. I have written several times about wanting to shut myself in a box. In that scene he shuts himself in a fridge.
At that point I said in my heart “i exactly know that feeling”
Then today I was chatting with a very dear blog friend of mine, and he told me it was coincidentally mental health day yesterday. He actually encouraged me to write this post.
For me everyday is a mental health awareness day.
Every day! Because everyday, I see how blind and ignorant the world around me is about mental illnesses, even thought it’s staring all of us in our eyes!
What does it take to be a little more human? A little more kinder?
I was talking to a kid on instagram she projects her dark thought in form of sketches and I love her art and expression.
I ended up saying “we all crave human touch”
Obviously we do!
Doesn’t make us attention seeker or desperate for fuck’s sake!
I am growing tired of this world judging us for our very human nature and trying to turn us into machines.
Can’t you see motherfuckers you are turning us into monsters?
Before I totally lose my mind.
Joker is one heck of a movie! I think you should watch it, but if you suffer from serious mental illness, consult your doctor or therapist first. It might sound funny but it’s not. I’m serious.
This movie is perfection in every way. Amazing acting, direction, script, music, dance, EVERYTHING! This is perfect!
I’m going to watch it again very soon.
Sometimes you need to see and hear truth from someone else, even if you know it already.
The music is out of this world, I’m listening to it as I am writing this.
Time to go guys.
I really needed to speak on it.
Please take care of yourselves and people around you and know that I really care about you all.
You might calm down a monster with a little compassion. And you might turn a really nice person into one, just by your mean and selfish demeanor.
Be a little more human please.
That’s all folks!
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