It’s time.. before my lunacy hits new pinnacle.
This is a bit scary blog post in this crucial moment as I’m applying and I do get views from UAE, that’s when I know they are checking..so, hello potential employers..I’m a far more serious person in real life you will know when you meet me.
First of all not everyone is entitled to give an advice in fact some people are not at all eligible to give an advice to anyone at all.
I have come to this realization that people might love you to death, care about you like their family, and actually try to support you, and yet!!! There’s a possibility they don’t know what to say to you in a crisis situation.
It’s crazy situation when people close to you don’t know your triggers. They end up shooting shit to the fan when your life is already a never ending chain of shocks.
Today I got up. again..
I know how precious this time is I literally have few days and a full diary of to-do lists.
Oh, btw. My last post about your preferred notebook pages format is about my up coming project. Well, not really a project I want to design a few journal/notebooks kinda thing. Let’s see how that goes.
Back to pep-talk!
So, today I got up even though I clearly knew my state. Nobody can know our mind and body more than us.
I dragged myself to shower and I slipped. Didn’t break anything, besides some shower fittings. I’m all in one piece. And it didn’t hurt for a few hours, after that I managed with best solution possible..turmeric tea and prayers..
After that I felt I’m losing grip in my hands. I wasn’t able to hold anything.
These are my classic symptoms of depression.
But I got up and pushed myself again. Because I am running out of time.
Then I got that call!
Yea THAT call.
A call from my friend who really likes me, cares about me and supports me. And even though I told her about my whole day she expressed her concern that I’m not making enough effort. To make it worse she started laughing when I tried to explain that I actually have to schedule interviews and I don’t want to barge in an office and talk like a clueless depressed frightened piece of shit!
I don’t understand how people do that! I don’t doubt her sincerity one bit. I know she is my well-wisher but sometimes people just don’t know what they are talking about.
Thankfully I have some friends who actually know what to say. And we came up with a quick solution.
I need to draw lines. I need to set boundaries.
I fought all my battles alone. I can’t let people destroy my hard earned peace.
Until I’m in right headspace I only need people who know what to say to me. Who understand me.
It’s for my own sanity.
Not everyone needs to know your every life update and not everyone know you enough to give you an advice, especially people who make you feel bad for not following their suggestions!
Your mental peace is above anything.
Everything else can wait.
That’s all folks!
Kindly visit my post Warriors Invited To Raise Mental Health Awareness where I am inviting Mental Health Warriors to submit their blog’s address so that we can join hands to control this wildfire.
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Here’s the link to my debut poetry collection => Swinging Sanity
Here’s the link to my post about the book – All About Swinging Sanity