It’s time.. before my lunacy hits new pinnacle.
This is a bit scary blog post in this crucial moment as I’m applying and I do get views from UAE, that’s when I know they are checking..so, hello potential employers..I’m a far more serious person in real life you will know when you meet me.
Well.
First of all not everyone is entitled to give an advice in fact some people are not at all eligible to give an advice to anyone at all.
I have come to this realization that people might love you to death, care about you like their family, and actually try to support you, and yet!!! There’s a possibility they don’t know what to say to you in a crisis situation.
It’s crazy situation when people close to you don’t know your triggers. They end up shooting shit to the fan when your life is already a never ending chain of shocks.
Today I got up. again..
I know how precious this time is I literally have few days and a full diary of to-do lists.
Oh, btw. My last post about your preferred notebook pages format is about my up coming project. Well, not really a project I want to design a few journal/notebooks kinda thing. Let’s see how that goes.
Back to pep-talk!
So, today I got up even though I clearly knew my state. Nobody can know our mind and body more than us.
I dragged myself to shower and I slipped. Didn’t break anything, besides some shower fittings. I’m all in one piece. And it didn’t hurt for a few hours, after that I managed with best solution possible..turmeric tea and prayers..
After that I felt I’m losing grip in my hands. I wasn’t able to hold anything.
These are my classic symptoms of depression.
But I got up and pushed myself again. Because I am running out of time.
Then I got that call!
Yea THAT call.
A call from my friend who really likes me, cares about me and supports me. And even though I told her about my whole day she expressed her concern that I’m not making enough effort. To make it worse she started laughing when I tried to explain that I actually have to schedule interviews and I don’t want to barge in an office and talk like a clueless depressed frightened piece of shit!
I don’t understand how people do that! I don’t doubt her sincerity one bit. I know she is my well-wisher but sometimes people just don’t know what they are talking about.
Thankfully I have some friends who actually know what to say. And we came up with a quick solution.
I need to draw lines. I need to set boundaries.
I fought all my battles alone. I can’t let people destroy my hard earned peace.
Until I’m in right headspace I only need people who know what to say to me. Who understand me.
It’s for my own sanity.
Not everyone needs to know your every life update and not everyone know you enough to give you an advice, especially people who make you feel bad for not following their suggestions!
Your mental peace is above anything.
Everything else can wait.
That’s all folks!
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Kindly visit my post Warriors Invited To Raise Mental Health Awareness where I am inviting Mental Health Warriors to submit their blog’s address so that we can join hands to control this wildfire.
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Good luck and peaceful thoughts x
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Thank you so much. I need luck and peace both. xx
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Hugs
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🙂
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Whatever you’re going through, you can get through it!
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Thanks for always being so supportive.
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😊
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I’m with you on this one. You do what you gotta do for your own sanity! Hugs
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Thank you so much *hugs*
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Right on all accounts. Specially the well meaning friends and family who don’t know what to say. Take care of yourself.
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Thank you. wish rest of the world was like people here..
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These are unique people.
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indeed 🙂
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Jeez! You know yourself best. You know your triggers. You know your symptoms. Take care of yourself. You will do that best too.
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I’m really trying. I have learned one thing in last few years. No matter what never stop taking care of yourself even if it’s just drinking a glass of water. Nobody can help us we have to do it for ourselves.
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I totally agree. Some people are shit at understanding what makes the world go round and how to help (even if they seriously mean well) they can make a situation worse. Hope your ok now and I love the turmeric idea, I use it as well. Helps with the arthritis.
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I’m in a better place mentally but physically..all my joints are hating me right now lol. Turmeric must be helping but I had to take pain killer too..and even that’s not helping..so maybe will just wait now. 😆
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I know what you mean. I do notice a difference with the turmeric though. I’d read it worked for inflamation and arthritis so I thought, why not as I’m all about natural over meds. Not that I don’t have to take them because I do. I just want to limit them if possible.
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i notice it too with mild pain and inflammation. i avoid meds too as long as i can.
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I hope today is a better day!
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Not really…
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I’m sorry to hear that. I have suffered through several months of difficulty. I had another bad fall but I’m better and able to get around again. For me it’s taking it moment by moment, keeping my eyes on the prize of being well or at least better than I was yesterday. Sometimes that’s how I have to cope.
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I am pain killers. No other option. And had fever today and was hurting everywhere. New bruises are appearing lol. It’s funny I didnt even know where I was hit.
Well. I will get better.
Have a long overwhelming to do list that’s driving me crazy.
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When that happens to me, I look at the list, and pick one thing to do. When that’s done, I may choose to do another on the list. One at a time works best for me because otherwise your right it is overwhelming.
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You are right. I did try to pick one but my mind was darting everywhere..now I will take one at a time. 🤗 thank you
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It’s the only way I can do it, and if that information is at all helpful, then I’m thrilled!
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“Here’s your one chance, Fancy; don’t let me down!” Feel all the positive engrams I’m beaming to you right now!
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Google was referred to only once, to understand this comment 😂
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I adore your last two lines of advice. Hugs to you – I hope you’re able to keep up with pep talks!
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Thank you so much. i will! 🙂
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