It’s one of those very rare days when I am having an anxiety attack and I have no one to lean on.
The thing is. I tried, I really tried reaching out to people but for some reason or other conversations had to end. Everyone is busy it’s Saturday.
Then I wrote this..
I shudder with fear
I feel scales
As it slithers
On my skin
Is it one
Two..or a million
I don’t know
It’s draining life
Out of me
I’m sweating cold
Around my shoulders
Untill I pass out again..
I don’t know what to do. This work anxiety is driving me mad.
I gave a long list of duties I will be performing for the company but due to insanely stupid level of politics I find it hard to explain anything.
Tomorrow have to go back to work.
I can’t even explain what im going through im just randomly switching between numb and anxious.
I know I have nothing to lose.
I know in a way I got a promotion.
I know boss wants me there, even tho the other person is playing really filthy games to get me fired but I straight up told my boss im not a political person if you don’t want me here just let me know.
This all is so shitty. I wont be staying here for long, this environment isn’t worth it but how do i survive as long as im here?
Every minute of today feels like a century and then that century is flying fast and I don’t know what to do.