Wrote this on Wednesday.
“Imagine a soap opera with location of an office and characters employees.
Now imagine 2 out of 3 fighting with full on drama, like tears and all.
Now imagine yours truely sitting on her chair lost in work, completely oblivious to the fact that there is hand-over going on and one of them is leaving.
I didn’t know the whole day. I kept thinking it would be over soon and it’s just drama, nothing serious.
Don’t know what I’m gonna do from tomorow.
They both are wrong and right at the same time.
I feel bad about the whole situation.
This world is getting extremely competitive and next moment employers find a better person willing to work for lesser salary.
Half of me is feeling numb about what’s gonna happen tomorrow as I will have to do everything now.
And half of me is sad..its a ruthless world.
Competition has got to a point where things are just have gotten ugly.
Today it’s her tomorow it will be me..
I don’t know what’s going on.
Today I ran to catch a metro. I could wait as next one comes in maybe 3 to 4 minutes, but would that be fun?? Or dramatic?
I dont know guys, I dont know what’s going on.
I don’t understand this world.
Still waiting for one normal day.”
And then came yesterday. The day if me sitting alone in office and trying to stay as calm as I can.
All went ok. Nothing bad happened. But preemptively I was careful about a lot of stuff. I just joined and this was an informal setup running by 2 friend, one of them resigned after an ugly fight.
All was good untill I was leaving and my boss suddenly said you will me comming on Saturdays too..
I swear my stomach jumped in my throat and my heart dropped to replace it.
Like major wtf moment.
I was hired to work for 5 days. My salary was fixed accordingly. Due to their twisted work timings I get home late with zero energy.
Half of the time he was complaining about how bad ex-employee was. On one hand I know he was right, on the other I know he will to the same to me…
Well. This is where it gets interesting.
Few years bad I wouldn’t be able to handle a situation like this.
Now I started timing myself.
I gave myself 1 month margin to be here. And I was living on 1 day at a time agenda.
Now I have shortened it to 1 task at a time.
It’s weekend here.
Planning to do meal preps as things are going to get harder now on.
Tomorow shopping is on the cards InshAllah.
Then work from sunday. On tuesday I will plan how to handle this Saturday situation. I need to come up with a solid reason for why I cannot come on Saturdays. I m sure he is not going to I crease my salary to adjust for it. And honestly it’s not even about salary. I am not a machine.
Even if I were a machine, my springs would have come out by now.
This is adult life.
In my case it is a choice. I have chosen struggle because I don’t trust this world to take care of me.
But yea this is growth. Preparing to face a challenge when you just see tip of the iceberg is massive growth. My old version would have fallen apart by now.