Thank God I cancelled order for those expensive shoes I took ages to choose, because I won’t be able to afford it any time sooner.
Life is wildly unpredictable. And I am out to set a record for things-going-against-the-plan kinda life.
I have been gravely disappointed today. I feel like a cloud of sadness just settled over me.
I felt like a failure. Why failure? A friend asked. Because no matter what I do I wont get where I think I should be getting.
I run a mile and when I look at it I’m standing at the same spot.
Even tho I have dream support system. My friends are beyond amazing, they just know how to be there for me and never belittle my problem (which a lot of people do intentionally or unintentionally).
I am calling dad 3 4 times a day and he even tried to crack his 5 pages long dad jokes. He is doing all he can to not let me fall and it’s beautiful to see him trying to do it and succeed at it.
Another friend made a new schedule for me to keep me on track.
I told you, I have amazing friends right. But I still felt that cloud getting darker. Now, I know where it goes.
I know how it works and that’s worse when you know where this cloud is going to take you.
This I saw this!!
A random instagram post description. A quote by Oprah Winfrey.
Then I allowed myself to cry.
And I’m going to do that a little more. I need this off my chest asap.
I felt that it had started raining and the could got a bit lighter.
Indeed failures are there to push you in the right direction.
If I look closely I haven’t lost anything. Absolutely nothing!
In fact I progressed and learned a lot a long the way.
It hasn’t been as I expected, or as i planned. But maybe all of this will push be in the right direction ultimately.
It’s a painful process. Metamorphosis have never been painless.
So that’s what these failure are. Stages of metamorphosis to build you. To get you where you are meant to be. It might not be how you planned it to be, but it’s definitely worth the struggle…