They are crawling under my skin again
My world is turning gray
Am I actually weak and naive?
Or life’s getting harder day by day
My mind tells me “push yourself”
My heart urges me to pray
I don’t know what to do anymore
I am watching my patience drift away
Last night I was pacing like crazy
Tonight I’m just a figurine of wet clay
I don’t know what’s happening anymore
My senses have started to betray
I think I heard snapping of my sanity
Or it was another false alarm, can’t say
My world is clouded with confusion
And lies, with strong stench of decay
I can’t see my next step anymore
I didn’t have a direction, anyway
Tonight I’m waiting for next storm
Letting my mind wander, swirl and sway..
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Here’s the link to my post about the book – All About Swinging Sanity
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Stoner on a rollercoaster 
I find this beautiful in how it portrays the ugliness of how emotions play out. The world wants our emotions to equal rainbows and sunsets but sometimes, the portrait is less that and more this. ❤
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Ah I wish life was rainbows and sunsets..I wish!!
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Get a kitty, stoner.
My cat sits for hours, preferably near something warm like me,
with nary a thought, pleasant or otherwise,
about the future or the past
of this unfolding now
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I have been around my friend’s cats and I feel for some reason I triggered them, which triggered me… so a cat and me would just be driving each other crazy lol
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Maybe try a dog then. No offense to cats or cat-lovers, but dogs are more playful and help in cheering people. Though I guess that I’m no one to say bcs I have neither. 😅- and want both…
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I know dogs are love!
I actually want a dog but who is going to take care of it lol
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Thank you Mirza. Poetry enables us to let go of our hardest emotions. Well done. Hang in there. I’m in your corner, from sunny Toulouse. Spring flowers already peeping out. Take care.
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You are amazing. Thanks for sending kindness and light everytime.
You too ❤
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It’s been a bi!ch of a day. Boxing gets me through it.
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Reminds me of the time when I went to reception building to ask where did punching bag go. They looked at me like I asked for dinosaur skeleton.
Workout surprisingly gets us through a lot of shit.
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24/7 caregiving is so stressful, and boxing gets it out of my system.
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yes, i agree. you need to have nerve of steel. and workout is something that helps u mentally and physically. i would love to learn boxing some day.
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If you are ever in my neck of the woods 🥊🥊
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Oh yes! that would be fun!😀
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Aah!! This is written perfectly! Look forward to reading more of your work!
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Thank you so much! And sorry for late reply.
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Kind of sounds like the last several posts you made… Sweet friend… You always amaze me the way to get it all out and find higher ground! God bless your sweet heart! ;-)))
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i honestly don’t know what I’m doing i feel i stumble and then realize i have no choice then getting up again and moving on.
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Because you are strong even when you believe you are not! It’s admirable my friend!
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This feels like the inside of my head every second of every day 😭.
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Sending prayers for your recovery and healing.
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💜
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Beautiful! I start thinking I’m the only one. Thank you for reminding me I am not alone out here.
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no you are definitely not alone. we are in this together 🙂
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Very nicely written poem. I enjoyed reading it. If you want to read some poems about nature, check out my blog- https://bloomingthoughts.home.blog
And keep up the good work
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Thank you 🙂 will check for sure.
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So relatable and beautifully captured!
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Thank you 🙂
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Great stuff. This is a reallly beautiful piece. I’ve been a writer for quite some time now but a total novice in poetry. I’d like to know what you think of this poem https://mayet8.wordpress.com/2020/04/18/shackled-2/
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Sure 🙂
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Done 🙂
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Much appreciated. Thank you!
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