Few days back, a fellow bloggers replied to my request to follow my new account, saying that I am always trying to sell my books and stories. That’s just a part of that reply I’m not even going to burn my energy on the rest.
I wasn’t going to burn my energy on this one too, but it made me re-evaluate my blog, and how I am navigating in this space.
Btw I didn’t reply to it since I directed my anger into looking at what I have been doing so far.
First of all, I only have 1 published book that’s a poetry collection. I don’t have story/stories to sell. So anyone who doesn’t know that, isn’t reading my blog clearly.
Secondly, I have been writing here for more than last 3 years, my book is just 1 year old.
This is a free blog, I haven’t earned a penny here so far because I didn’t want to. I know how to, I have been a marketer and a content developer professionally.
Because making money out of it wasn’t part of the plan, ever.
I started it to cope, as most of us. And I learned, grew and evolved as a writer, artist, person and a WordPress community member along the way.
If anything, my blog resulted me spending indirectly rather than earning anything.
I have stopped updating you guys on my communication and struggles with amazon every other day unless it’s helpful to you guys too.
Recent update, just when I thought I’m close to my $100 check, amazon informed me I need to made $100 from every market place to get the checks from them individually. And so far the $100 I saw were the total. So I don’t see myself getting any royalties in near future.
I gave away 164 ebook free when lockdown started, without any condition. I didn’t even keep track of those books. I would be glad if you would drop a rating or review though, but that’s entirely up to you.
So, it was never about money , even when I needed it I kept this place as the last resort.
It wasn’t about fame or anything either. Nobody here knows me and after few experiments I realized nobody is interested in knowing ME, they come here to read. They are here for what I write.
About my re-evaluation. I started my mental health awareness project here 2 years back and I have been advocating mental health from the day I started this blog.
So far I have managed to have one post where I keep adding intros and links to mental health bloggers/fighters/warriors, who are sharing their stories here. That didn’t happen overnight.
People keep joining in. I’m not adding the link in my recent posts, not because I forgot about it or I didn’t care anymore about it. Because I was making a few changes. I wanted to change the wordings and I need to be careful with it.
I have run months of promoting and sharing best stories/posts of mental health warriors. But I can’t do it frequently as there is a procedure I follow. When I am secretive about myself, I need permission from the author’s before sharing their personal stories. It takes time.
Then I ran promotion months for indie authors. I didn’t charge them, they didn’t come to me. I ask them because I believe in this community. Because they have supported me.
If you look at categories on my blog you would know what it is about. Sometimes I feel my mind and soul is recorded here. That’s why I have immense respect for this platform.
It let me be me.
I grew here without judgement.
I have tried my hands on other social media platforms, so far twitter and instagram is still workable places but there’s the type of content it works for. I’m learning that.
But WordPress is home.
Yesterday I came across a post on a local instagram account and I felt a pang of pain in my heart since most people still haven’t even started to accept the idea of mental illnesses. To them it’s nothing. And people were writing how they are mocked for voicing it by their own parents.
And then the little bulb in my head lit. And I know what to do with it.
Be it my arts, writing, reading, reviews, literally anything… everything revolves around mental health directly or indirectly, and why not? We all have a mind. It’s one thing common in all of us!
So that’s the plan.
To be myself, and to do my thing.
Helping humanity and myself where I can.
Well, helping humanity IS helping myself!
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Kindly visit my post Warriors Invited To Raise Mental Health Awareness where I am inviting Mental Health Warriors to submit their blog’s address so that we can join hands to control this wildfire.