A small full circle.

Let me start this post with one of my favorite Charles Bukowski quotes:

nobody can save you but yourself
and you’re worth saving.
it’s a war not easily won
but if anything is worth winning then
this is it!

Some of us are fighting to survive, some to grow, but we all have our platter of battles to choose from.

My blog started as something to save myself but as the sands of time slid, it has turned into a part of my life, a ladder I use to grow and navigate in life.

A part of this was my book, and I can proudly say it has completed a full circle; from and idea to getting paid for that idea.

Even after publishing I kept reviewing it and kept making changes where required. Yesterday I have updated it the last time after reviewing it under a microscope.

Here’s the truth, a huge part of self-publishing is marketing your book and trying your best to make sure it lands in the hands of your readers. Yes, even regular readers can skip the update. Therefore, it takes constant work. Then you are looking for new readers as well.

Your creativity shifts from creating something to marketing, and trust me it does great job keeping you on your toes.

So right now after this 1 full cycle my brain looks like this.


And all the thoughts and ideas are bumping into each other like this..


I need to take a step back and breathe. To save myself from losing my own balance.

Everything comes to saturation point and I feel my blog has suffered last year because of jobs and all, I was extremely busy!

I have hundreds of incomplete posts, So that’s where I need to direct my focus on now. And some new ventures on the cards. I just designed my first t-shirt. Can’t take 100% credit for it as it’s a combination of different readily available ideas.

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If you want it let me know I will email you the file (only this one!). It’s my first experiment with merchandise designing so I don’t mind sharing it.

There’s a lot to experiment and learn.

My bags are packed and I’m waiting for repatriation flights to resume. I have to start over with more than what I’m ready for. But one thing I know, the new world will have tighter competition.

Sadly, things aren’t looking good. If you know how to monetize your skill you might have an edge and a better chance with opportunities.

Life was hard before covid, I don’t know what hell is it already running into.

Even in quarantine I kept pushing myself 1 step at a time. Kept myself as busy as I could, or I would hate myself later for wasting time.

Btw, I still should be having 3 days more to run free promotion I have to look into that too.

But now I’m at a saturation point, along with stress of traveling during these times.

Well. Let me get to the point.

If you have a dream pursue it, or you will regret not doing it when you had the chance.

A lot of what I do now are crazy experiments.

But if not now, then when?

NOW is always the best time.

I made a little investment (not my book) last year when nobody had the slightest clue of pandemic. That appreciated when everything is falling apart and I got my royalties during this time.

I might come of as a selfish person but I can’t see people around me (including you all) to emotionally fall apart and lose hope.

I care about you guys. Please do not lose hope.

Things will get better, they always do.

Take care of yourself and don’t give up on your dreams!

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Kindly visit my post Warriors Invited To Raise Mental Health Awareness where I am inviting Mental Health Warriors to submit their blog’s address so that we can join hands to control this wildfire.

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  1. Sometimes I go through dry periods on my blog (like now). I’m haven’t written new, just posting pre-scheduled things. But I find that sometimes it’s good to take a break. I come back with fresh perspective and go in a new direction.

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      1. Pakistan to UAE haven’t. In news it should have started from 8th. You need permission from UAE government which nobody has gotten yet. Most of flights are from UAE to pakistan carrying people who got stuck or lost job. Just waiting and hoping I go at the right time everything is so complicated right now.

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