A lot has been going on and in the middle of chaos suddenly you stop and feel nothing at all.
My baby sis got engaged 3 days back. I wasn’t there and it was so overwhelming for me I couldn’t even talk to her for 2 days. I did make short calls. I was afraid I might burst out crying. She is like a daughter to me.
And I was afraid about what’s going to happen now. Life’s too cruel. These life changing moments scare me. I keep reminding her about reality of life, no matter how hard it is. Because when expectations break, you break.
I can see her dreams shatter. She is a dreamer and a lovely person, she can’t say no. This scares me.
Then 2 days back I finished revision of my 2nd course and I thought I would do things that make me feel good.
I had some cherry tomatoes that I just let shrivel and basil seed from my own plant that dried out long ago when I was away.
I m trying to germinate seeds, I don’t have high hopes but it can be a pleasant surprise.
Did some decluttering.
And today I make shrimp toast for myself with this cute Petit Pain (i don’t know why I find this name funny)
Shrimp toast with sweet chili sauce was something I have been craving for a while.
It turned out amazing!
And then there was that buzz.
Static
I stopped and felt nothing, even though I have been keeping myself really busy (As usual) because that’s how my system works. I have to go in overdrive or I go numb.
This static is temporary and I will be fine, when I will do something else.
Actually Sam asked me to write here, she thought this will help.
How does a normal brain work btw?
What do you guys think when you are not doing anything?
I do have a long list but at the moment numbness has fogged my mind.
Maybe it’s not a bad thing. Our braincells need a breathe sometimes.
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Reading through your day was pleasant. I hope your seeds germinate.
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I highly doubt it, but no harm in trying.
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It can be hard sometimes, I do relate to this. I hope you take care yourself in the upcoming days and weeks as that is really important.
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I do take care of myself. Just that life gets confusing at times.
Thanks for kind words.
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Watch out for the system that is where the danger lurks
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But is it even avoidable?
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it does need a highly conscious approach to reality, that means constant vigilance
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