I was jumping with joy, until I was jumping in panic.
Sometimes I just freeze in a moment and wonder what has my life come to? Can I do one thing without a problem? My sister disagrees… she says it runs in the blood.
I was happy that my basil and tomato seeds were germinating until I showed the picture to C (she is actually good at this)
She said, they need to be moved to soil now! And google agreed!
Tears of joy turned into tears of despair in a second. I did not have soil and I haven’t got physically to get anything in long while.
The fastest delivery was in 3 to 4 days and Dubai’s heat (trust me it’s on 10% of it’s tyranny these days) is sprouting them really fast.
I called a few places but in vain.
Then I sort of accepted they are going to die.
I said,,fuck it!
I went to a grocery store for the first time in like 9 to 10 months!
The things I do for love…
It felt good..not getting wrong stuff in such a long time..
I have too many wrong deliveries to deal with.
So now I keep moving the sprouted seeds to soil. I planted some peppermint seeds too, those are so tiny you should breathe slow while dealing with them. One deep breath and you might grow mint in your lungs.
No idea what happens next. Moving seeds is delicate and tiring and need you to focus.. or maybe it’s just me.
Oh I dried those flowers Sam got me. They look like this now.
Will take a better picture later.
Had a lazy aimless day today.
Watched a twisted paranormal+sci-fi series (Dirk Gently’s …something..) that’s really not making sense but keeps my few senses busy. I have to keep my some senses busy or my mind starts to wander and it’s not that nice.
Busy is always better.
And I have been eating A LOT! surprise!
Well hope you are having a good day.
Take chances if you want to. We all make mistake most people don’t even remember them, the ones who remember and remind you of your mistakes and flaws are just not nice people and you shouldn’t let them get to you.
Don’t give them that pleasure of seeing you suffer for something that’s not even important.
Rest, if you need to.
And be kind to yourselves.
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