I would be surprised if i wake up tomorow i qm literally dying with exhaustion.
Workouts in winters are hard if you are new to it.
You don’t know what a crazy ass hoarder you are untill you start decluttering.
I didn’t even need to do this one!
I had guests and they started roaming all across my apt when i wasnt preparing for it. INCLUDING KITCHEN.
trust me my head was spinning when i realized people actually notice every nail, every hinge, every box or corner of your home.
I can be regilar visitor of a place and still wouldn’t notice colour of the walls there.
I had a big bag full of bubble wrap. These i saved because it had really big bubbles. Finally threw them.
There was a moutain of empty boxes literally touching the ceiling. Got rid of those too.
Tons of grocery bags. And when i need one i cant find it. Saved few of these.
Cleaned, washed, got rid of stuff non stop like i was possesed or something.
I stopped couting my trips to garbage room after 6. I must have got at least 9 times.. could dispose off multiple bodies in that many trips.
I have to do all of this so that i can focus on other important things in life.
I miss writing here regularly. I have too many incomplete posts saved up and i have covered subjects i really wanted to talk about but I’m not getting time to do justice with them.
I havent studied in a month or so i have to resume my lectures and where i paused the difficult topics were starting i need to focus.
I have to start applying for job again.
Have to photograph my artwork for selling… this one is not easy! I tried and failed once.
Then my 2nd poetry collection.. idk whats happening with that.
In 2021 i planned to review works of fellow bloggers. Some i did but there are a lot more to cover.
Did i turn my life this insane or this is how it is for everyone?
Did i get into a lot of things? A lot more than necessary? Maybe..
But i still feel i do nothing.
I dont know..
God i miss zazu so horribly.
My mind is in fast forward. I clearly am in overdrive to a point where im just jittery all the time and feel like im doing so much but not getting anywhere.
I was going to have a meltdown when i saw price drop on handcream i just order yesterday.
This is life.
Dad’s going in surgery soon and that’s also giving me little heart qttacks every now and then.
Its minor surgery but during covid that whole thing is 100 time scarier.
And now fire alarm is blaring at 2 56 am!!
Well i think its in next building. Its not ours. Hopefully.
Thanks for being patient with me. I will be back with my regular writing soon. I missed this place a lot!
Thanks for reading.