If words has physical form it would be easier to see their impact when we toss them at each other.
Some words heal you like magic.
And some words destroy you like calamity.
I’m going through an extremely sensitive and volatile phase of my life and thank God I realize that it’s me who is boiling and brimming with too many conflicting feelings right now.
Few days back I talked to my old friend who also used to be my colleague, and every word this girl said gave me power.
After that call I was ready to conquer the world.
Then I have friends who talked about pros and cons both so that I don’t make a wrong decision.
Even though they are saying everything right. I sometimes end up feeling confused and agitating because they are not speaking my language.
They are telling me what I need to hear, not what I would love to hear.
Then there are friends/family who unintentionally try to force their suggestion because of their own harsh experiences. They don’t want me to feel bad in any way. They are really scared because of their own sufferings.
I don’t know what to feel when all of these people want the best for me, but their words end up making me feel worse because I am cooking a volcano in my core.
It’s natural to not like what we don’t want to hear in a moment where we are already feeling weak.
But I try to breathe now.
I try to give myself some.time and breathe and tell myself all these people really care about me, it partly helps. I’m not a robot, I can’t program myself. But at this prevents my wrath to unleash on them, the people who are trying their best to be there for me.
It’s a sad and confusing position to be in.
I try to not bring such subject into conversation, since I don’t want to ignore anyone, I need them and it’s just not right. But it doesn’t work, conversation leads itself to that point.
What would you do in such a situation?
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