How do you guys deal with negative thought related to people close to you?
At this point in life I really need to focus on myself and things that need to be taken care of, but all i’m thinking about is people who were related to me in an unavoidable capacity and how they just fucked my life.
I can’t stop thinking how they have got the whole universe going in there favour and my life is a constant battlefield. Have always been!
I have raging anger and hate in me and it’s consuming all of my energy.
It took me a few days to realize why I’m this tired all the time.
Anger literally drains life out of you.
And then I’m feeling guilty and crying for feeling this way.
I don’t know where to go with all of this. I tried to share it with family, and ended up being judged.
All of this is so wrong on every level. Everyone has moved on and enjoying their lives.
And I’m here crying in a corner thinking “whatever happened to me could happen to them too, then why ME? this has just made them 100 times more insensitive and they make me feel like i deserved all the shit i have to deal with”
I shouldn’t be feeling all of this but I can’t help myself.
what to do with this bitterness. How do I deal with this?
It’s such a bitter feeling.
I might sound like a spiteful jealous psychopath but I really needed to let it out.