😢

I don’t know how am I going to move on with my life. Minutes and days pass by and I feel time has stopped for me. And it’s painful.

I’m living but not living completely without her. I desperately want to hold on to her voice in my mind and when it starts to fade it freaks me out. I’m terrified of losing her, even though we have lost her already.

It seems I keep on losing people. It’s scary.

She would understand my anxiety and help me through it I would call us “last 2 anxious brain cells” and now I’m just this scared anxious mess with no idea where to turn to.

All my feelings are so tangled I don’t understand what’s happening.

I couldn’t be more grateful for her mother to help me with her kind words. I can see from where C got her kindness from.

I find little solace in the fact that C and I, both were very open and vocal about our feelings for each other. We would frequently tell each other how much we loved and cared about one another and how grateful we were for our friendship.

This one thing gives me a little comfort. Just a little.

Can you please do this too? For yourself

Nobody knows who will be next. C was my age and she is gone so suddenly.

Can you please tell your loved ones what they mean to you?

Tell them how grateful you are for their presence and tell them what you truly feel for them.

We communicate dislike with far more ease than love.

Please do this for them and yourself.