I’m having a little bit of inner conflict since I resumed my journey in the corporate world.
Deep down I know the answer but I have that little fear of what if I am left out….
Let me explain.
I have been away from the public eye for the last 5 to 6 years at least. Sounds like a celebrity thing but if you are on Facebook with 250+ friends for me that’s a lot of socializing!
Quitting Facebook was one of the best decisions I ever made. But since almost everyone is there I lost contact with a lot of people. I don’t regret this part.
Now, when I tried to be active on LinkedIn… I have no connections. Because in these 5 6 years a lot of people forgot that I exist, or people I was actually in touch with weren’t working…idk.
I don’t know how people have hundreds of connections, I have only 20 something. Literally, at this point, I wouldn’t mind if any of you added me there. I’m still more comfortable with people from this side knowing about that side, than vice versa
Is this the price I have to pay for keeping my life private?
I still start getting anxious whenever I share about my writing, even though I don’t disclose anything. Like I just told A2 that I have published a book but I couldn’t share anything more and then I regretted sharing this too…
I have been most peaceful when I kept my emotions and opinions private and only shared them with you guys. I trust you all, you don’t judge me and you are kind.
You are 2nd family to me.
If I list everything I do on my LinkedIn my profile will definitely look better but am I ready for it?
My book is linked with my blog and on my blog, where I don’t want employers/colleagues intruding.
Maybe I will never have to do it, my be I will gradually find more connections there without being too open about myself.
I can just be my crazy self here and I love it. This reminds me of that quote again
“I have found both freedom and safety in my madness; the freedom of loneliness and the safety from being understood, for those who understand us enslave something in us.”
― Kahlil Gibran, The Madman
Hope I figure out what to say and how much to say. And how to not feel bad about being too social.
Hope I find that balance soon.
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