So I’m back to my room after 1 whole year, at dad’s place. My room here isn’t My     Room. It’s more like MyRoom. Let me explain. 8 years back I used to share this room with my baby sis and it was our room. Everything here was the way we wanted. Then one... Continue Reading →

Paper mache doll

And suddenly I’m that shell of a person With my soul sucked out of ears All there’s left is a paper mache doll Hollow Confused Floating around One room to other A blind walk on a memorized loop I haven't lost vision But still I can’t see Like there is a veil behind my own... Continue Reading →

Negative Thoughts

How do you guys deal with negative thought related to people close to you? At this point in life I really need to focus on myself and things that need to be taken care of, but all i'm thinking about is people who were related to me in an unavoidable capacity and how they just... Continue Reading →

hi 🙂

Hey all! Just dropped by to say something Life has suddenly gotten EXTREMELY busy for reasons I might talk about later, depending on circumstances. But right now my plate is cracking under the an Everest. But I’m fine. Absolutely fine. I’m actually happy in my heart. I haven’t been active here for few days or... Continue Reading →

When it’s over..

I'm staring into the night Black jewel encrusted giants circling me As if Its an amphitheater And i'm going to perform I can see moon peeking from the edge of a giant I'm burrowed in my couch My eyes stretch in horror when i'm not horrified It's first punch of reality right in the face... Continue Reading →

Proud of Myself

I have been wanting to have a fresh baby pineapple for a while now but the eyes was so hard to take out. Then I randomly came across somebody peeling a baby pineapple on instagram and I thought... I think I can do this. And I did! Look at this cute little juicy pineapple. This... Continue Reading →

The Fall by Albert Camus

Reading an absurdist can be challenging. When I started reading The Fall by Albert Camus, my thoughts were “this is the shortest book I have” "this is my 2nd book by Albert Camus, I wont regret it maybe..” And then I nose-dived straight into it. The book starts with a self-proclaimed "judge-penitent", Jean-Baptiste Clamence, narrating... Continue Reading →

Grief and all…

Few days back my grandpa passed away (as most of you know from my last few posts) I have never been close to him but felt a little closer after my mom passed away. Given my history of freezing in the moment when I family member leaves, and then exploding with pain and trauma later,... Continue Reading →

We lost Nana Abbu

My Nana Abbu (maternal grandfather) passed away last night. Thanks for your prayers, love and support. Always know that I love you all and appreciate your presence in my live and everything you do for me. I am in the middle of a lot of things right now and now this… I don’t know how... Continue Reading →

Whatever is happening

I have lived enough years (some pretty traumatizing) to tell when I'm slipping into depression. It's like stepping blinding into quicksand and next you have no control over anything at all. Thanks for all the love prayers and support you all sent my way for my grandfather. You all are the best people on the... Continue Reading →

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