Grief and all…

Few days back my grandpa passed away (as most of you know from my last few posts) I have never been close to him but felt a little closer after my mom passed away. Given my history of freezing in the moment when I family member leaves, and then exploding with pain and trauma later,... Continue Reading →

Barbed Wires

As I coiled Carefully These barbed wires Around me Preparing myself like a sadist For the inevitable tragedy I kept folding and wrapping Until, I couldn’t see my body And then I waited for the roaring doom To crash on me, ruthlessly The circle was closing in And it was impossible to flee I knew... Continue Reading →

I am failing

Its almost time When i have to go Go back to my mental prison I tried I swear upon your beautiful smile I tried I tried to be here I tried to keep smiling I tried to harden my heard To a point where it started cracking I was conflicted Torn By the raging battle... Continue Reading →

Need Help with Expressing Misery

Somebody needs to teach me how to show anguish. I am definitely doing it wrong…since forever! It’s been more than 3 years since I have been battling an autoimmune condition that damaged me in ways more than I could ever imagine. But there was this problem. Whenever I met people I was just my idiot... Continue Reading →

Something about charcoal.

There’s something about charcoal… its dust settles into your own darkness which is therapeutic for some odd reason. Drawing, smudging, layering, erasing the blackness pulls you into another world of gloom and tranquility. I realized why I am obsessed with charcoal, it lets you play with darkness. And darkness is undeniable. It exists in your... Continue Reading →

A sad pathetic joke.

My life is a sad pathetic joke. An excruciating tragicomedy, mocking me in my face. Today is my birthday. My 30th birthday. Today it’s been 1 whole week without mom. I can’t say without mom as we all feel her presence as if she will appear from any door in her healthy form with some... Continue Reading →

Lobotomized Souls

Relieved are those lobotomized souls Who acknowledge their defeat Submit to doom And find solace in agony… Copyright © 2017 stoneronarollercoaster – All rights reserved

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